Friday, April 3, 2015

Story from surrogate mother own lips


Is it easy to carry a child and give him to strangers?

Surrogacy, which takes its origins in ancient times, is a unique and only way for millions infertile families to have own children. In some countries gestational surrogacy is permitted by the law and is extremely popular in nowadays. In case of gestational surrogacy healthy, strange woman carries a child for infertile couple and baby is not genetically related to surrogate mother in this case. Conception is conducted outside genetic mother’s body (in vitro), after which fertilized egg is transferred into the uterus of a surrogate mother. But, there are in the modern world cases of traditional surrogacy as well. That is when a woman carries a child who is related to her genetically (using her eggs). This type of surrogacy is permitted only in some countries. One surrogate mother told how she bended to be bent on such step, what she felt during 9 months, and whether it was easy to give baby who is partly her own.

“I am 28 years old. I live in a small town with my family - two children, husband and his parents. I work in a small shop as a saleswoman, my husband is a driver. Until recently, we lived in a two-bedroom apartment with two children and elderly parents. When my grandmother died she bequeathed me a studio apartment. So my husband and I decided to get a separation from parents but money was tight: parents are pensioners and as for husband’ and my salary money is often tight even for necessities of life.

I've heard about surrogacy, saw several programs on TV and read some information in magazines. Often, when media covers surrogacy theme, some people speak well it, others criticize such a procedure. And I remember my thoughts concerning surrogacy - where can be the harm in surrogacy program? It seems that everybody is happy in such case: parents, child and surrogate mother receive all they want and need. But at that time I have not thought about how to become a surrogate mother using my own eggs.

When our family has faced with a strong lack of money, I called to memory about surrogacy. I shared this idea with my husband. At first he was strongly opposed to it. But when I explained him all the details of surrogacy process I managed to convince him. Relatives also understood and supported me. After that I looked into information concerning surrogacy in the Internet resources. At long last, I found a good clinic and went there. Visiting reproductive center I underwent all needed medical tests, went through examinations and after that I was proposed a program on my oocytes, as prospective mother had Rokitansky syndrome. I clearly understood that it will not be my own child and I just will help infertile couple to become happy parents. Moreover I could receive more money participating in traditional motherhood program. I agreed and signed the contract. After a time doctor and test result confirmed my pregnancy. I was happy and set myself up for a successful pregnancy.

Of course I thought that it’s extremely important to protect little life inside me and his health. I also always thought about my family and how we will no longer need money and solve all our problems after program’s end. I regularly visited clinic, underwent necessary tests and ultrasonography. During ultrasound investigation when I saw the baby, his tiny legs, arms, hear his heart beating my heart shrunk. I have two own children but each time it’s like the first time. During ultrasound when I was on the 12th week of pregnancy I started crying and I thought that I would have to give this tiny miracle forever ... and then I will never see him again and will not even know how he is getting on. During the program I spoke with psychologist who helped me to cope with maternal instincts and thoughts that this child is not mine. Sometimes I looked at my own children and imagine a third one near them. But it was just moments of weakness. I clearly understood who I am in this program and what my obligations are. You just rang a bell you can’t unring! I had to think about bright future of my children and welfare of my family, which has faced a terrible credit debt.

In maternity clinic I signed a waiver (I agreed to give this child and had no parental rights) and consent to record child's parents in his birth certificate (infertile couple). At that moment I began to doubt a bit. I could not to sign these documents and, as a result, child could stay with me because originally woman who gave birth to him is a mother. Besides, I was an egg donor as well. But I didn’t think about such variant. I agreed to become a surrogate mother in order to give people opportunity to become parents and help my family financially. I remembered words by psychologist who told me that he is not my child, I trust him for a time as a kindergarten teacher and when time comes I have to give him to legitimate parents.

Honestly speaking, it's not as easy as it seems at first glance. And I thought before the program began that all these will pass easier in psychological sense. But it's really hard, especially when I know that this child has a piece of me. He will be somewhat similar to me, will take over me certain character traits, etc. And I will never see, even out of the tail of my eye, our similarities. Of course it’s better that we will not meet with him because in such case it will be probably unbearably painful for all. In any case, I can say with confidence that I have not regret that I was surrogate mother for strange people. I present an incredible happiness to these people who will be grateful to me for life. And I have helped my family and relatives, provided own children with a bright future”.  

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